These things I know...

I've been a little lazy on the posting over the weekend etc. Sorry about that. It's been an interesting few days. Not interesting because things are taking place that are rare occasions or events, but interesting because they've been rather a blur for me. To explain this may take a few thoughts, but overall I've not been myself. Sure I'm fine in front of people, but when I'm at home with Casey (watching me cry or sleep) and Marley (letting me hold on to her) I feel as if I'm not really myself. The nurses said most moms hit a wall from the emotional highs and intensity of the first two weeks after babies are born and that's probably the cause for this odd feeling I've been experiencing. Maybe so. What I do know is this journey has caused me to sit still in His presence often, and meditate on the things that are true to His word. For example: 

• God has been and will be glorified through this journey. 
• He has His gracious and merciful arms around me at all times. 
• He weeps over His children just as I weep over the distance between me and Boone. 
• The Lord provides for me spiritually, physically, emotionally, and mentally by using those around me (Casey, friends, family, nurses, doctors, our students and young adults, our faith families across three states, and yes... even Marley).

I long for the day that this experience is over, but am thankful for God giving me an opportunity to experience Him and His provision, consistency, and faithfulness. He has never left my side, and I constantly sing praises to His name throughout the day. Here's two of the songs I've been singing over the last two weeks: 

Leeland - "Carry Me On Your Back"

Even heroes fall down

And mountains won't last forever

But Your promise never fails

When the ocean is raging

I find stillness in Your presence

And I lift my voice to say

'Jesus take me away!

Carry me on your back

Through the storm, Lord!

Carry me on your back

Through the storm, Lord!'

When the furnace is burning

I know rescue is coming

Your promise never fails

In the darkness Your light shines

Breaking over the horizon

And I lift my eyes to see

Heaven's fighting for me

Waking up in the arms of love

I'll be singing, singing a new song

Waking up in the arms of love

I'll be singing, singing a new song

Hillsongs United - Forever Reign

You are good, you are good

When there's nothing good in me

You are love, you are love

On display for all to see

You are light, you are light

When the darkness closes in

You are hope, you are hope

You have covered all my sin

You are peace, you are peace

When my fear is crippling

You are true, you are true

Even in my wondering

You are joy, you are joy

You're the reason that I sing

You are life, you are life

In you death has lost its sting

Oh, I'm running to your arms

I'm running to your arms

The riches of your love

Will always be enough

Nothing compares to your embrace

Light of the world forever reign

You are more, you are more

Than my words will ever say

You are Lord, you are Lord

All creation will proclaim

You are here, you are here

In your prescence I'm made whole

You are God, you are God

Of all else I'm letting go

My heart will sing no other name

Jesus, Jesus

My heart will sing no other name

Jesus, Jesus

Boone is doing about the same. We are trying to pack on the pounds this week so he can go home soon. The extra pounds will help him maintain his body temperature etc. Also, he will be switching to Digoxin this week. This heart medicine has less long term side effects, and will be easier to manage when we are at home. Hopefully, he'll be on this medicine for a short period of time. Maybe 3 months or so. It's getting closer to having him home, but we still have to be patient. 



In the meantime, here's a picture of Boone Bear without his feeding tube. 

We're so proud! 

• I know Boone will be home when the time is right. 
• I know that until then the Lord will continue to use this journey to make His name famous. 
• I know that I'm thankful for the opportunity to be a part of this. 
• I know that I'm blessed to have a hubs that stands strong in the Lord, and by my side each and every day.

Please continue to use us Lord for your glory. 

Melbel